Every now and then I begin to worry and ask myself, “what am I going to become in life?” “Am I going to be able to support a wife; make a living; use the gifts that God has given me and the passion he has given me for his word?” I begin to think the worst and lose heart.But I am reminded and brought back to Matthew’s Gospel. We know the verse all two well, but do we actually believe it and obey it? The more I worry, the more I am given an opportunity to obey God’s word. “But seek (desire, pursue) first the kingdom and his righteousness, and all of these things will be provided for you” (Matt 6.33). This verse is slowly becoming more and more really and lovely to me as the days get closer to my marriage. I am realizing that nothing happens without a purpose. God uses every trial and hardship to accomplish his perfect will and to make me trust him and become more like Jesus. I also start to realize that I may not even make it to see tomorrow to begin with. I may die in my sleep; get hit by a truck; have a heart-attack; who knows! But what I do know; what is more certain than the sun rising tomorrow is the faithfulness of God and his everlasting love for a sinner like me. And for that, I am forever grateful!